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Finding My Investigative Geek Again

This past June, I graduated with my Bachelor’s of Art in English and moved to my dream town, Portland, OR. Over these past few months, I have been able to view my life from various perspectives. All this turmoil has led me to a path of life I find the most truthful to myself and this post is my claim to a new-founded Investigative Geek.

Why Portland?

As I have been asked by many locals, “Why Portland?” At first, the answer was simple, I wanted to work at the world’s largest bookstore, Powell’s Books, and from my very first trip here four years ago, I was in love with the entire atmosphere of the city. I, luckily, was hired onto Powell’s team and worked for Powell’s for a few months. However, their goals did not aline with my own and I was conflicted, often questioning my own love for literature. I left the team and started searching for work on my own.

At the time, I thought all my problems would be solved by resigning from Powell’s. However, that was just the beginning of my journey.

A Period of Unstable Balance of Home Life and Work Life

Since I started at Powell’s as a part-time employee, I was searching for remote work on the side. Since I now held a degree in English, I assumed it would be easy to establish myself as a freelance editor or ghostwriter. I quickly came to the conclusion that the field was diluted and it was very difficult to get a stable footing. It was after many job scam applications that I gave up completely on the front.

Jobless and working on this blog in my free time, I was overwhelmed. Reading felt like a chore, I had no desire to write my manuscript draft, video games were not even a consideration, and watching television was replaced with endless scrolling on TikTok. Needless to say, I fell into a complete rut.

Realizing My True Path

“True Path” sounds so sure, but that is not even close to the truth. My truth is something crafted of ideas and desires that fuel my career and hobbies. I placed so much blind faith in the possibility of landing a freelance position straight out of college and in the time of the COVID pandemic. This was my ultimate destruction. I powered through school and assumed “adulting” would come just as easy for me. Obviously, that was not the case.

Even though it hurt to see all of my previous hobbies fade away from me and my dream job fall apart day by day, it led me to my current goals and aspirations. I now work as a campus store assistant and barista at a medical university and I am content with that for now. I know someday I will be able to complete my Master’s of Fine Arts in Creative Writing and become a professor, but I am comfortable with the life I currently live. I have a comfy apartment with my partner, my bearded dragon is happier than ever, I work on my manuscript whenever I feel the urge (which is often these days), I have started my trek to consult my mental health, and I am able to pursue my various hobbies on my free time. I am content and I am comfortable with being comfortable.

What Investigative Geek Means to Me

During my job search, I tried monopolizing this website and was disappointed when I did not earn as much as the many blog advertisements guaranteed on Pinterest. This disappointment led me to leave this website behind in grief for the false future of being a freelance blogger.

Instead of the original purpose of being an outlet for my fangirl obsessions, this domain became a work of marketing strategy and SEO content. There might be an alternate timeline where I was able to successfully grow this domain based on the many HubSpot academy lessons and social media marketing strategies, but that path did not prove successful at this time in my life.

Instead, I want to return to my fangirling outlet. I started this domain with so much joy to connect with fellow writers/fans and rant about the depth of Feysand and the new Marissa Meyer novel. Now, I want to return to that. I find myself asking elaborate questions while reading my favorite novels and I want to share my findings with you. I want to share my observations of writing techniques within fantasy novels based on scholarly research. I want to write about the ways in which an author foreshadowed the ending of their novel within the first few chapters.

In other words, I want to share with you useless content that sparks interest. If my time in the English program taught me anything, it’s that literature is a portal not only to other worlds but into ourselves. Literature deserves our unfiltered emotions, for that is what grows more works of literature and starts the cascade of words.

If you wish to join me, then please follow and I will supply you with various questions/answers to our beloved novels. After all, Investigative Geek is the Answers to the Unasked.

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